Friday, January 17, 2020
Being Tall
7/30/12 ââ¬Å"Six, sevenâ⬠. Thatââ¬â¢s what I would say about twice a day when asked how tall I was. Iââ¬â¢ve always been tall so over time I had gotten used to and annoyed of this question and I would usually make these feelings evident in the tone of my response. However, it wasnââ¬â¢t the only response I was used to giving. ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t have itâ⬠. Thatââ¬â¢s what I would say about twice a day when asked where my homework was. â⬠Câ⬠. Thatââ¬â¢s what I would say when my friends asked me how I did on the big test. I repeated the same answers over and over again but never really thought about them.Over the past year I began to question these responses and came to the conclusion that they were the wrong answers. I wasnââ¬â¢t lying about my height or my homework, or my grades or my studying habits, but ever since I started to think about these questions Iââ¬â¢ve been able to change the answers. I havenââ¬â¢t gotten any shorter or mor e intelligent but by actually thinking about the question Iââ¬â¢ve been able to give the correct answer. I started to realize that I was being asked the same questions over and over around sixth grade.I wasnââ¬â¢t even thinking about high school back then let alone college and beyond so I still had some time to figure out the right answers to these questions. ââ¬Å"Wow do you play basketball? â⬠Teachers would ask as they saw me struggle to fit through the doorway. ââ¬Å"Uhh yeahâ⬠I would flatly reply. ââ¬Å"Why didnââ¬â¢t you study, you knew you had a testâ⬠. ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t know,â⬠I wasnââ¬â¢t even thinking about what those words meant but it was still just the practice round for the real thing so I still had time to find the right answers.I was explicitly warned when high school rolled around that ââ¬Å"it counts nowâ⬠. It was spelled out to me multiple times that high school was the real deal and even my Freshman grades would coun t towards college. I was also told that I wasnââ¬â¢t done growing yet and I would only be getting taller. I wasnââ¬â¢t thrilled about either of these facts, but instead of using my height to my advantage or taking school seriously I continued to wander through my life getting increasingly tired of the questions I was being asked. Do you even want to go to this school? â⬠ââ¬Å"Yeah, yeah of courseâ⬠I would jadedly reply, solely to humor the asker. ââ¬Å"How great is it to be that tall? â⬠ââ¬Å" Yeah its pretty great, ha-haâ⬠I would say politely, but emptily none the less. As my high school career continued and the college clock kept ticking I failed time and time again to find the right answers to these questions. Around the middle of my junior year the college process had begun and I had decided to go visit a college over March vacation.As I got out of the car I immediately fell in love with the school, the campus was perfect and the students looked like they were straight out of a brochure. All the schoolââ¬â¢s features were amazing and while on the tour I began to grow increasingly excited about the school and the idea of college. As the tour came to a conclusion all the prospective students gathered in a room to hear a lecture about the application process from an admissions officer. As I stood amongst the other students I realized that I was the tallest one there.I was used to being to the tallest person at a given place but this was different. I realized that because of my height, I stood out, but in a good way; all the admissions officers and faculty noticed me before the other kids there. I saw my height for what it really was: and untapped advantage I had been given. I realized that when people were asking me how tall I was, it was because they were astounded, almost impressed at my height. As I happily chewed on this realization, I was slapped across the face by a second epiphany.As the speaker went more into the ap plication process, he began to talk about the schoolââ¬â¢s average GPA for high school students; my GPA wasnââ¬â¢t even remotely close to this average. ââ¬Å"They just boost those numbers up for the presentationâ⬠I lied to myself ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m sure everyone else here is just as shocked by those averagesâ⬠I looked around and literally every other student nodded in agreeing upon hearing the numbers. My separation from the group continued as the other students began to ask questions like ââ¬Å"Are 3 honors courses enough or are you looking for more in an applicant? and ââ¬Å"I only have a 3. 5 GPA but I take six courses, is that taken into consideration? â⬠I started to feel something I had never felt before, an impending sense of doom that came over me like a tidal wave as I started to mentally panic that I wasnââ¬â¢t going to end up here, that I had thrown away a golden opportunity that was given to me. The feeling was sharp and it stung. I felt sick to my stomach on the ride home as I wallowed over the idea of not ending up at college at all. As I continued to think this over at home I came to the onclusion that this could be a good thing, I should take this realization and use it to turn my grades around with the little time I had left. I thought about the questions I had always been asked and realized that the answers I grew accustomed to giving were not in fact the right ones. I remembered hearing an old proverb that now seemed to be directly speaking to me: ââ¬Å"No matter how far you have traveled down the wrong road, turn back. â⬠Turn Back. That night I decided to turn back, even though I had traveled so far down the wrong road.When I came back to school after the vacation I felt stronger than ever, I was so ready to attack school. The second day I was ready to hear those oh so familiar words: ââ¬Å"Where is your homework? â⬠It was a small homework assignment and the teacher undoubtedly expected me to have b lown it off. ââ¬Å"Right hereâ⬠I proudly retorted to the impressed teacher. Later that day a man at the gas station asked me if I was a basketball player. Again, I proudly said that I was and made a friendly joke about having a tough time with it because Iââ¬â¢m so short.As the semester went on I continued to walk towards the right path, correctly answering lifeââ¬â¢s questions. Every night as soon as I got home I would sit down and complete every homework assignment with consciousness and pride as opposed to half-heartedly completing three or four out of five assignments. With the new found knowledge that people naturally notice and look up to me, I am setting a good example around the campus for others to follow, from cleaning up trash in the student center to starting a new club. A began to find myself on the right road, even though I was a little late.My hard schoolwork paid off when my grades landed me on the honor role for the first time. I also decided to put my size to good use by playing football in the fall of my senior year. With all this being said, I am the first one to admit that I was the definition of a late bloomer academically. Having already experienced low academic performance I can honestly say that I want to excel through college and beyond, not just with grades, but in all aspects of life. In the end the answers are what count, not the questions, and Iââ¬â¢m ready to answer any question life gives me, correctly.
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